Nothing in life can prepare us for the death of a loved one. Whether a death results from an accident or a sustained illness, it always catches us off-guard. No matter how strong you are, nothing can prepare you emotionally and mentally. With every death, there is a loss. And with every loss, there will be grief.
Grief doesn’t come and go in an orderly, confined timeframe. Just when we think we are doing fine, another wave sweeps in and we are forced to revisit the memories, the pain, the fears. However, grieving is also a part of healing. Sometimes we try to resist the demands of grieving. We long to avoid this fierce. We fight against the currents, terrified of being overwhelmed, of being discovered, of becoming lost in our brokenness. Yet as painful as it is, grief cleanses the anguish from our souls and sets us back up on the path of life so we can breathe. Grieving is the process God uses to bring us to a place of wholeness. Grieving is His great gift to us. It is a necessary part of our journey- Healing.
February 02, 2020, I have lost my Father and have been heartbroken and in pain until to this day, I am still in grief. These past few days since I lost my Dad, my faith have been also tested. With so much pain and in despair, I once try to question God but through his undying love, his grace has helped me through these darkest time of my life. He comforts me by using the people around me and they never left my side since that day. First, my family – through their love and support especially my Mom. They have helped me get up and try to balance the feelings of pain and loss while going forward with my everyday life. Second, my friends that have been so understanding and patience to me. And most importantly my other half, my boyfriend, an angel sent from above, who have become my rock, my inspiration and the love of my life, he has helped me see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I cannot asked for more. I am contented and grateful for what has God blessed me during these hardest time of my life. I have lost my Father physically, but his love and memories will live forever in my heart. I have been through my weakest time but God has blessed me a support system- the people that have been there and always be there for me. I have been in pain but God is helping me turn these pain into strength.
I am still grieving but God has made me understand that it is part of the healing process. With that, I have realized, grieving can be the most difficult time for everyone who have loss someone they love. Trying to balance the feelings of pain and loss while going forward with our everyday life is not that easy. But in order to grow and heal, we need to give our self some space and time, be honest with our emotions, don’t grieve alone, and don’t lose hope for God will never leave you.
Joshua 1:9 “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”