When we think of the new year, we think of starting fresh, a clean slate. While I was driving back home this morning after I dropped my brother at the airport, I was thinking about writing something for my blog in regards to the New Year 2020. However, I got so many things to write about that I don’t know where and how to start. For 2019 has been a challenging year for me, full of ups and down- more like a rollercoaster, some people may say. If you haven’t read one of my blogs, I have been through a lot these past few years, especially 2019, where I lost my dearest Grandfather, although it was also a year full of good and happy memories to treasure forever. Looking back, 2019 has also taught me life lessons that made me a better, wiser, and braver person. Despite the heartbreaks, disappointments, and other hurtful things that had happened to me, I have learned to open my eyes to look for a ray of sunshine in the darkest time. Growing up going through GAD and panic disorder, it has not been easy to recognize positiveness. But here I am now a whole new different person, and that amazes me.
The “bettering yourself” step has never been easy. Many people wonder if it is still possible to become a better person once you are an adult. The answer is a big fat yes! For me personally, I think that becoming a better person is a part of “growing” and that “growing” is a lifetime. I would be lying to all of you if I would say that it just all happened in one day. From recognizing and accepting yourself, forgiving, healing, and to embracing the new journey, I would say it was a long process, and it takes much time. And I would not be able to accomplish it all by myself. I once read the saying, ” Give God your weakness, and He will give you strength.” And since that day, I have been hanging on those words. For I know in myself that everything wouldn’t be possible without His grace and undying love. Also, Surrounding myself with those people who love and support me is what has helped me. To my family, friends, and colleagues, I am very thankful to you.
In every new year you can look back to all the memories that have happened and remind yourself the journey to what you have become in the present but it doesn’t mean you need to wait for a new year or a new decade for you to start something new. Because everyday is a blessing and a chance to improved yourself. I have mentioned this before, and I will not get tired of repeating this, “Sometimes, It is okay not to be okay” because life is full of surprises and pain is unavoidable. You just need to keep looking for a ray of sunshine in the darkest time, surrender everything to God, and trust the process.
Happy twenty-twenty everyone and let’s keep growing!